crowd to get somewhere else, either another part of the dance floor or off the dance floor.. you end up saying sorry a lot to random people you don't even know. Its so much fun! (: There is a club downtown thats called Studio 600 and its kind of like a "mormon" club. Its not really but it is, cause you can't wear tank tops, has to be full tops. And no really slutty outfits and such. It only serves water. Its a really good place. I'm glad that it exists! So they have a NEON Night, every so often and its so cool. I've only gone once or twice but its really fun. You have glow sticks and can wear bright colors, paint your face with bright colors and other stuff. People get so into it. Like girls will wear old 80's bright neon outfits haha, and yeah. The music is the best cause its so loud, that after you leave the club, your ears ring forever! They play pretty good music there.. you can definitely dance to it. But it sucks cause it gets crowded sometimes.. super jam packed crowded. At some point you end up not even dancing but the crowd is moving you around. hahah. Its weird to think that some people can meet there and become lovers or something. I mean it takes some guts to go up and just dance with someone, but I guess thats how that whole thing is anyway. Plus being rejected, hahah. As sad as it is, its kind of funny. I just love that whole scene, I don't know if I like being apart of it more, or just watching others be apart of it. haha, I have decided I'm an observer of life. I usually like to observe others lives then live my own. Then I sit there and wonder why such things aren't happening in my life. I think they could if I stopped observing and starting living. I guess I like anthropology in a way. I love studying how people act. If they are dumb about situations or pretty smart about them. Yep, I'm kinda weird. haha, so school sucks. Its a good thing to have in your life but I don't like being in a classroom learning about something I'm going to possibly forget in a few years. Its quite pointless at some time. I mean if you're going to be a math teacher, its important to know how to divide fractions but if you're going to become a writer, to you it doesn't matter if you know that or not. Or when Benjamin Franklin was born, if you're going to become a cook, why do you care? You know? Sure I guess its cool if you're with friends or co-workers and out of random, you're like "hey did you know that George Washington tripped on a rock and had bad knee problems after that for the rest of his life" Or "did you guys know that 4/5 multiplied by 8/9 doesn't work?" I mean who cares, It is really that impressive? I don't think so. I mean it helps you through high school and college, but does it really help you when it has nothing to do with your career you want? Why do we waste time learning things that won't even help us with our careers? I guess for those who don't know their career its a good thing but if someone wants to be a firefighter, why waste their time. That'd be funny, a firefighter is saving some family from a fire in their house and out of the blue he's all "did you know that I can make a pot in 10 seconds flat?" haha. You'd be like, uh just save me, hello?!?!?! Its just kind of pointless. But whatever, it hasn't changed in forever, its not gonna change now. OH duude, speaking of school.. this year has been scary. There was a kid at Granger High who killed himself for some reason, then some boy gets shot up at Kearns High. What is with the world? Why are guns so big this year? I don't like hearing that.. cause that now affects my school. Geez, we have so many freakin' cops there now. Plus there is a crack down on getting to classes on time, and if you don't come to Hunter, then you can go to another school or go to Juvenile Hall. Like what option is juvy? So some kids don't want to come to school, so lets send them there? Is that really gonna help the world. It might I guess. But its dumb. I swear teachers can be so dumb sometimes. For example, I am in a gym class for 3A. And last Thursday, this english teacher decides to go walking the track when the gym class is on it. WTF? I mean go before school, what are you doing while a gym class is on it? Checking out those underage kids in high school? Seriously, that is really dumb. Plus she got all mad at us when we were waiting for our teacher to come take roll again so we could do the laps around the track.. and she is freaking out on us cause we are not waiting like we should be. In a line, next to the wall.. boohoo. Grow up, we're waiting, we don't want to sit and wait, we want to walk and talk. I mean we are in gym, we're not in the class to sit? like what goes through there mind. If they don't understand it then they got to question it, cause they need to know EVERYTHING?? Stupid. I'm pretty sure they know what goes on in a teenagers life but things have changed a tid bit. More drugs, more violence, etc. Just little changes that for some reason affect everything. I'm sure half the teenagers get drunk or high some nights a week. Think about killing themselves, feel super lonely, get tired of life, or just want change and don't know what to do. Then also people say go talk to your teachers if you need any help but when you go to class they aren't putting themselves out there enough to care about any of the students. They act resistant toward students.. its weird. I'm sorry but teachers are really dumb sometimes. Yep.. anyway, sorry about the rant on teachers.. they've just annoyed me this week. Peace outt! (:
Saturday, January 24, 2009
It's Five O'Clock Somewhere..
"I know this pretty rave girl, Always think about her. When she says hi to me, butterflies go right through me. When I see her dancing want to take a chance and get in a little closer, and maybe get to know her." Ever been to a dance club? They are fun! You can just feel everyone's energy levels as they are dancing and going crazy. Or if its too packed you can feel someone's hand touching weird places, usually not but you never know. And its possible that as your moving through the
crowd to get somewhere else, either another part of the dance floor or off the dance floor.. you end up saying sorry a lot to random people you don't even know. Its so much fun! (: There is a club downtown thats called Studio 600 and its kind of like a "mormon" club. Its not really but it is, cause you can't wear tank tops, has to be full tops. And no really slutty outfits and such. It only serves water. Its a really good place. I'm glad that it exists! So they have a NEON Night, every so often and its so cool. I've only gone once or twice but its really fun. You have glow sticks and can wear bright colors, paint your face with bright colors and other stuff. People get so into it. Like girls will wear old 80's bright neon outfits haha, and yeah. The music is the best cause its so loud, that after you leave the club, your ears ring forever! They play pretty good music there.. you can definitely dance to it. But it sucks cause it gets crowded sometimes.. super jam packed crowded. At some point you end up not even dancing but the crowd is moving you around. hahah. Its weird to think that some people can meet there and become lovers or something. I mean it takes some guts to go up and just dance with someone, but I guess thats how that whole thing is anyway. Plus being rejected, hahah. As sad as it is, its kind of funny. I just love that whole scene, I don't know if I like being apart of it more, or just watching others be apart of it. haha, I have decided I'm an observer of life. I usually like to observe others lives then live my own. Then I sit there and wonder why such things aren't happening in my life. I think they could if I stopped observing and starting living. I guess I like anthropology in a way. I love studying how people act. If they are dumb about situations or pretty smart about them. Yep, I'm kinda weird. haha, so school sucks. Its a good thing to have in your life but I don't like being in a classroom learning about something I'm going to possibly forget in a few years. Its quite pointless at some time. I mean if you're going to be a math teacher, its important to know how to divide fractions but if you're going to become a writer, to you it doesn't matter if you know that or not. Or when Benjamin Franklin was born, if you're going to become a cook, why do you care? You know? Sure I guess its cool if you're with friends or co-workers and out of random, you're like "hey did you know that George Washington tripped on a rock and had bad knee problems after that for the rest of his life" Or "did you guys know that 4/5 multiplied by 8/9 doesn't work?" I mean who cares, It is really that impressive? I don't think so. I mean it helps you through high school and college, but does it really help you when it has nothing to do with your career you want? Why do we waste time learning things that won't even help us with our careers? I guess for those who don't know their career its a good thing but if someone wants to be a firefighter, why waste their time. That'd be funny, a firefighter is saving some family from a fire in their house and out of the blue he's all "did you know that I can make a pot in 10 seconds flat?" haha. You'd be like, uh just save me, hello?!?!?! Its just kind of pointless. But whatever, it hasn't changed in forever, its not gonna change now. OH duude, speaking of school.. this year has been scary. There was a kid at Granger High who killed himself for some reason, then some boy gets shot up at Kearns High. What is with the world? Why are guns so big this year? I don't like hearing that.. cause that now affects my school. Geez, we have so many freakin' cops there now. Plus there is a crack down on getting to classes on time, and if you don't come to Hunter, then you can go to another school or go to Juvenile Hall. Like what option is juvy? So some kids don't want to come to school, so lets send them there? Is that really gonna help the world. It might I guess. But its dumb. I swear teachers can be so dumb sometimes. For example, I am in a gym class for 3A. And last Thursday, this english teacher decides to go walking the track when the gym class is on it. WTF? I mean go before school, what are you doing while a gym class is on it? Checking out those underage kids in high school? Seriously, that is really dumb. Plus she got all mad at us when we were waiting for our teacher to come take roll again so we could do the laps around the track.. and she is freaking out on us cause we are not waiting like we should be. In a line, next to the wall.. boohoo. Grow up, we're waiting, we don't want to sit and wait, we want to walk and talk. I mean we are in gym, we're not in the class to sit? like what goes through there mind. If they don't understand it then they got to question it, cause they need to know EVERYTHING?? Stupid. I'm pretty sure they know what goes on in a teenagers life but things have changed a tid bit. More drugs, more violence, etc. Just little changes that for some reason affect everything. I'm sure half the teenagers get drunk or high some nights a week. Think about killing themselves, feel super lonely, get tired of life, or just want change and don't know what to do. Then also people say go talk to your teachers if you need any help but when you go to class they aren't putting themselves out there enough to care about any of the students. They act resistant toward students.. its weird. I'm sorry but teachers are really dumb sometimes. Yep.. anyway, sorry about the rant on teachers.. they've just annoyed me this week. Peace outt! (:
crowd to get somewhere else, either another part of the dance floor or off the dance floor.. you end up saying sorry a lot to random people you don't even know. Its so much fun! (: There is a club downtown thats called Studio 600 and its kind of like a "mormon" club. Its not really but it is, cause you can't wear tank tops, has to be full tops. And no really slutty outfits and such. It only serves water. Its a really good place. I'm glad that it exists! So they have a NEON Night, every so often and its so cool. I've only gone once or twice but its really fun. You have glow sticks and can wear bright colors, paint your face with bright colors and other stuff. People get so into it. Like girls will wear old 80's bright neon outfits haha, and yeah. The music is the best cause its so loud, that after you leave the club, your ears ring forever! They play pretty good music there.. you can definitely dance to it. But it sucks cause it gets crowded sometimes.. super jam packed crowded. At some point you end up not even dancing but the crowd is moving you around. hahah. Its weird to think that some people can meet there and become lovers or something. I mean it takes some guts to go up and just dance with someone, but I guess thats how that whole thing is anyway. Plus being rejected, hahah. As sad as it is, its kind of funny. I just love that whole scene, I don't know if I like being apart of it more, or just watching others be apart of it. haha, I have decided I'm an observer of life. I usually like to observe others lives then live my own. Then I sit there and wonder why such things aren't happening in my life. I think they could if I stopped observing and starting living. I guess I like anthropology in a way. I love studying how people act. If they are dumb about situations or pretty smart about them. Yep, I'm kinda weird. haha, so school sucks. Its a good thing to have in your life but I don't like being in a classroom learning about something I'm going to possibly forget in a few years. Its quite pointless at some time. I mean if you're going to be a math teacher, its important to know how to divide fractions but if you're going to become a writer, to you it doesn't matter if you know that or not. Or when Benjamin Franklin was born, if you're going to become a cook, why do you care? You know? Sure I guess its cool if you're with friends or co-workers and out of random, you're like "hey did you know that George Washington tripped on a rock and had bad knee problems after that for the rest of his life" Or "did you guys know that 4/5 multiplied by 8/9 doesn't work?" I mean who cares, It is really that impressive? I don't think so. I mean it helps you through high school and college, but does it really help you when it has nothing to do with your career you want? Why do we waste time learning things that won't even help us with our careers? I guess for those who don't know their career its a good thing but if someone wants to be a firefighter, why waste their time. That'd be funny, a firefighter is saving some family from a fire in their house and out of the blue he's all "did you know that I can make a pot in 10 seconds flat?" haha. You'd be like, uh just save me, hello?!?!?! Its just kind of pointless. But whatever, it hasn't changed in forever, its not gonna change now. OH duude, speaking of school.. this year has been scary. There was a kid at Granger High who killed himself for some reason, then some boy gets shot up at Kearns High. What is with the world? Why are guns so big this year? I don't like hearing that.. cause that now affects my school. Geez, we have so many freakin' cops there now. Plus there is a crack down on getting to classes on time, and if you don't come to Hunter, then you can go to another school or go to Juvenile Hall. Like what option is juvy? So some kids don't want to come to school, so lets send them there? Is that really gonna help the world. It might I guess. But its dumb. I swear teachers can be so dumb sometimes. For example, I am in a gym class for 3A. And last Thursday, this english teacher decides to go walking the track when the gym class is on it. WTF? I mean go before school, what are you doing while a gym class is on it? Checking out those underage kids in high school? Seriously, that is really dumb. Plus she got all mad at us when we were waiting for our teacher to come take roll again so we could do the laps around the track.. and she is freaking out on us cause we are not waiting like we should be. In a line, next to the wall.. boohoo. Grow up, we're waiting, we don't want to sit and wait, we want to walk and talk. I mean we are in gym, we're not in the class to sit? like what goes through there mind. If they don't understand it then they got to question it, cause they need to know EVERYTHING?? Stupid. I'm pretty sure they know what goes on in a teenagers life but things have changed a tid bit. More drugs, more violence, etc. Just little changes that for some reason affect everything. I'm sure half the teenagers get drunk or high some nights a week. Think about killing themselves, feel super lonely, get tired of life, or just want change and don't know what to do. Then also people say go talk to your teachers if you need any help but when you go to class they aren't putting themselves out there enough to care about any of the students. They act resistant toward students.. its weird. I'm sorry but teachers are really dumb sometimes. Yep.. anyway, sorry about the rant on teachers.. they've just annoyed me this week. Peace outt! (:
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Don't You Blame It On Me,
"When I See You, I Run Out of Words To Say" I felt like putting song lyrics up, haha. Oh man, so yesterday was our 2nd competition at UVU. AND WE ROCKED IT :D hahah, I like to think so. We started off with a bit of a shaky military.. but we got 1st place in it!! Take that Bingham, JK! hah. Then our dance routine was freakin' awesome, that was so much fun to compete. We took 2nd in that one, but its okay. Cause Bingham's dance routine is amazing. And they can do it so freakin' well. Daaang. Our last dance to compete was kick. We just learned a new one like a few weeks ago, and competing it was kind of scary. But I was excited.. it was fun. I like our new routine a lot! Plus our officers took 3rd. They did a good job! :D oh man, competitions are so fun! I had a runny nose though, so that sucked. Well it was more a stuffy nose I should say. But we were there until like eleven at night. It didn't really seem long though. It was a nice competition I think, there was no crowd it seemed on 1A,2A, and 3A side it seemed. Sad. Anyway, coming back to school this week has sucked! I don't like to work on assignments and yeah. haha, we did this mirror etching in pottery, and I totally sat on it yesterday! haha, sad huh. Oh well, I have to make another one anyway. I love knowing that I have good grades, it helps me so much. Last year at this time, my grades weren't as good as this year, well I did have math but it still sucked to see I was lower than a 3.5, its sad when you can't get a 2.0 I think. I mean a 2.0 is so freakin' easy. a 2.5 is easy. haha, at least in my opinion. As long as you go to school, do the work and turn it in. You can get over a 2.5, probably even over a 3.0. haha, school is super easy if you just go and do the work. Its crazy how kids don't go and so they fail all their classes and then they have to make it up within like the last two weeks of the term, or go to summer school, or night. Whatever one they can I guess. I slept in forever today!! I loved it too. haha, probably til 2 or 3 pm, crazy huh. it felt amazing. But I still have a freakin' stuffy nose =/ This sucks. Oh and for biology we had to do this presentation thing, and it was no fun. But I worked with Bree and Val, they are awesome! The first day we worked on the project, we were able to watch "the Strangers" after working on it for a while, that movie is sweet. It would suck if that really happened though. Well there isn't much to report I guess... hmmm, I'm off to a non-known night! hahah, :D peace out. (not off)
Friday, January 2, 2009
I Want A Love Like Johnny & June.
So, besides the bad. Lets get some good stuff in from the break ;) haha. First off Christmas was great! I got my itouch. And a hippotamus!! haha, I can be such a little kid. I got a ton of clothes this year. I thought I had too many already but I guess not.. woohoo. I love clothes. And shoes. I just want a big fat closet that is as big as... a house full of clothes, shoes, purses, everything!! haha. What girl doesn't though? ah. I want to see the shopoholic movie.. haha. Okay, so now moving on. My birthday!! I turned the big 17. It was awesome! I had drill, it wasn't that bad though, it went well. Then I came home and got ready to go ice skating with Holly and Brit :D that was fun, I stayed by the wall but I had a lot of fun! I miss B. hmm, then I came home and got ready for my party, like cooking and yeah. It was fun. My sister Haeli helped me. She is totally awesome. Love her to death! Hmmm, then I set the decorations up with no help from Tru. Okay so she helped by giving me tape, she just wasnt' tall enough for streamers haha. Its all good, she is still the best. Then people came! I was amazed, hahaha. But it was an amazing party anyway. I loved it. My friends are totally awesome (: I will never forget it. Now, new years.. woohooo!! Well I went to Brad and T's like usual, it was way fun. He cooks a delicious chili :D its the best, and so I ate some of that. Then played guitar hero, haha. My family got it for christmas and ever since we're pretty much addicted. haha, its really fun even though I'm only on medium, barely! I love it. Then I went to Karina's house and partied out there. It was fun. My first year going to someone's party haha. Like a friends house, haha. I enjoyed it. We wore hats and blew noise makers when the clock struck 12. Its sad, 2008 is over. No re-dos. or anything, we just accept how fast the year went and love what happened in it, I guess. But its sad. Life goes too fast for my liking. So yeah, there is my break for ya! haha, its been an interesting one. Anyway, Happy New Year! hope you partied hard, haha :D
Unfold Me, I Am Small.
Life is really put in perspective for you when you realize what you can do, and what you've just done that could end everything you've ever known.. like just because of one thing, you now have to get a WHOLE new life. New friends, new musical tastes, new things to do, everything has to be changed because if you think of that one thing that made you start all over again you're going to be bitter. And since this is a new start, you don't want to be bitter. Just because of teasing, my life now seems to be so fragile, its like if I even make the smallest move everything will collapse and I'll be left to clean it up by myself. It will make me stronger sure, it will help me in the end, so technically I could thank those that have made my life feel so fragile, they are making me a stronger person. Odd? haha. This break has sucked, for most parts its been a good one but other parts, wow. Honestly one person can change your life, for better or for worse. And then there is also the fact you have to avoid certain people because they are close to the person that is changing your life, and you don't want to deal with that. It sucks. I thought I was doing okay, that my life was going great, it still is, I'm sure. At the moment, I'm having a hard time seeing that. Someone told me that I have to get through the storms before the sunshine comes. Thats been a motto for me for a long while, "you have to get through the bad parts of life to get to the good ones" but when they told me this, I was so sour back that it was negative.. like I'd just given up on the sunshine, on the good parts of life. I am having way too many storms to even think of that sunshine that makes life great. My skies are way too cloudy you could say. I feel as if my life is in a box that says FRAGILE yet the people who are handling it are just ignoring those letters that spell fragile, I'm being tossed and they don't care if I hit a wall. Why should they? I'm just another package to them. One of many that they get to see in this life time. Why is it that we have to show we care for people by being mean to them? Fighting with them, hurting them, tearing them down to nothing, then saving them. When they finally want nothing to do with us.. thats when we figure we'll help them. WHY? Why can't we just say what we feel, and tell people that we care. That we are yelling at them because we care so much for them that its hard to tell them, why. I just want for one day, for everyone to say what they want to say. Not worry about people's feelings, or anything. If they feel the need to say then they say it! We go around bushes and corners trying to protect someone's feelings at times, but why? Maybe they need to hear the truth. The cold hard, honest to heavens truth. It will help us grow, but no. No one wants to really tell you the honest truth about yourself. And if they do, finally or someone is just that way. Then we get mad at them and cut them out of our lives because they hurt us. Technically we should be thanking them! They are saving us from what people are saying behind their backs.. telling it to our face instead of behind our backs. Yet we don't want to even talk to them, its weird. I just want a new start. New people, new things, new ideas, new new new new new. I'm sick of what has happened in the past that is making me such a mean person.. I'm mean because I'm trying to protect my fragile side. I don't want to be hurt anymore because I feel I can't be hurt anymore than I am right now. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I really don't. I'm sick of it.. every time I think I'm free, I'm not. I'm just getting ready to hit another wall. My box is going to break and I'm expected to pick up the pieces and make another box for myself. No one to help me, nothing to give me hope. Nothing. Its like looking at blank white walls, you see nothing! But yet, there is a possibility. You can splash colors on it, make it bright. Make it so no one forgets that its your wall. So there is now a bright light of hope.. I'm possibly seeing the sunshine.. or at least small rays of it. I just want things to be fixed. I want my life back to normal.
I just miss them. I really do miss them. Its like they're mean but I love it. Its just how I love our friendship to be.. haha. There has to be a reason that they came in my life, and are now throwing it around like it is just a basketball.. they came in my life for a reason I believe. To make me stronger? Teach me to take jokes more? I don't know but there is a reason somewhere. I've learned you can't joke through life. Such as all the time, its fun at times but its not always good. Its going to finally hurt someone.. its going to make them really hurt, and mad. I now know why I can't just joke around with people.. Life is a weird learning way. haha, you never expect things to be the way they turn out but then you learn something, so its not completely pointless that you just went through something. I'm one of those people that like to believe things happen for a reason. They probably don't but I like to think so anyway.. haha. Hmmm, I'm so hurt yet there is hope that I am starting to feel (: I'm just hoping, I find someone who will help me pick up the pieces, a little bit. And stay with me for the rest of the run I have left.. mmhmm.Btw: this song has helped me, haha. Breathe me by SIA. :)
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